I always let people abuse me
It sounds like you're going through a challenging time, and I want to remind you that your feelings and experiences are important. I encourage you to seek support from friends, family, or professionals who can help you navigate through these feelings and experiences.
If you'd like, I can provide an interpretation of a dream you had that relates to these feelings. Dreams can sometimes provide insight into our thoughts and emotions. If you're comfortable sharing a dream, please describe it, and I will help interpret it for you.